25 Jul

You know the kind of people when you ask them something and they don’t know the answer so they just make some shit up, and you know they’re making it up because they keep changing their answer when you give them more information that contradict their first answer.

And then when they realize that they’re talking shit they decide to make you look like an idiot, and they go all “no, you’re so stupid, you’re wrong, why are you making things up” and stuff like that. So they turns it so out that YOU are the stupid one. The kind of people who can’t admit they are wrong so they just makes you feel like shit.

You know those people?

Well, my dad is one of those people. Imagine going through your all life thinking you’re just a really stupid person, afraid to ask anyone anything because maybe they’ll find out you’re stupid and make fun of you. But really you were just fed up with wrong information this all time. And you only figure it out when you’re older and the damage is already done.

My point is, if you know these kind of people, please, tell them about the importance of safe sex.

Thank you.

22 Jul

I was supposed to go today to a poetry slam that a friend is participating in and I got the ok to get out of work early and asked another co worker if he can pass by work and give me a lift. He was like I don’t know if I’ll have room in my car at first, and then he said that he think it will be ok and that he’ll have room, so I ordered a ticket.

And then like an hour before it started he gives me the most shitty excuse to why he can’t give me a lift, “he won’t gonna┬ámake it in time”. He litterlly went from one side of the city to the other but he “didn’t have time” to pick me up. One of the people who picked a ride with him hates me, so I’m guessing it was her just being a bitch.

But now I feel like shit because I wasn’t there to support my friend and because I got another prove that everyone hates me.

Not to mention that on the way home on my bicycle when I was all crying and shit, some crazy dude decide that it’s a good way to start yelling at me and to be in my way, and when I ignored him he just started to curse me.

I really wished I knew what is it about me that attracts so much antagonism.

HELP!!!

18 Jul

My neighbours have this refrigerator that beeps every day, no matter what time it is, for hours. And it’s been going on for a year now and we asked them to stop but they just keep doing it. FOR A YEAR!!! It’s just beep beep beep beep for hours!!!!!!

And it just drives me crazy I can’t take it anymore!!!! I just can’t take it anymore!!!!!!!! It’s like torture!!!! And they now it bothers me and drives me crazy but they don’t give a shit!!! They do it on purpose!! They admitted that they’re doing it on purpose!!!!!!!

And I called the police twice but they don’t do shit because when they get here the motherfuckers turn it off so the police is like “we can’t do anything if we can’t hear anything”.

And I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!

I just spent an hour outside yelling at them “ENOUGH!!!” but they just stand and look at me trough the window with their kids and laugh. THEY DRIVE ME CRAZY AND THEN MAKE FUN OF ME!!!! (they are religious people btw).

And I just can’t take it anymore I want to kill myself, I just want it to stop!

18 Jul

Good to know that your own family doesn’t have your back and they will just let you go insane.

Thanks.

What Happened

17 Jul

When I was in collage I used to ask a lot of questions, I used to have long conversations about weird subjects. I used to have Facebook statues with over 100 comments about whatever I and my collage friends felt like talking at the time.

And yesterday I looked at some of those conversations and I thought to myself “wow, I used to be kind of smart 4 years ago what happened to me, why am I so stupid now”. I don’t have the power to start long conversations anymore, I don’t even know how to do that. Now it just annoy me when someone talk too much outside of the subject. Back then I had some great one liners and thoughts and today I’ve got nothing.

Today I’m stupid.

Or maybe it’s not my fault but it’s the people I’m hanging out with today. They get annoyed and makes fun of me when I ask too many questions. They get annoyed and mad when I try to start a conversation on something just you know, to have some kind of dialectics because I think it’s fun. But they just get annoyed and be like “ok just shut up”.

I don’t know if that’s really the reason but I do know that I’m not smart as I used to be, not that I was very smart but I did have my moments. Today those moments are gone.

10 Jul

I always dream that people actually care about me.

And then I wake up and remember that no one really does.

22 Jun

Being a fangirl is the only thing that helps, I mean there aren’t many things that makes me happy. But the actors and shows I love always makes me feel better.

But for other people it looks pathetic, they always make fun of me and say that I’m acting like an idiot. They always tell me to stop.

And that makes me feel like shit, I can’t even enjoy the only things that makes me happy because it makes me look pathetic. I need to feel bad for the only thing that gives me a reason to live.

Please don’t be assholes and don’t make fun on people’s interests, some people don’t have people in their lives to make them happy. Some of them are pathetic as me and we have is that one actor or that one show we love to death.
I hate this, I hate not being able to show my love and be happy.

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