Apparently my friends now think that every little thing I do is annoying just because there’s this new girl at work who doesn’t like me.
I feel like I’m in fucking high school again.
And what’s hurt the most is that they don’t see that they are different around me. I asked one of them if she wants to go out for a drink (which she knows means “I need someone to talk to”), and she said she prefer to go for a show with the new girl and my other friend.
So I basically just spent the night crying by myself.
so you know by now that my brother is an asshole, and that he doesn’t care about me.
well, yesterday was Rosh Hashna and we were invited to our cousiens, but I didn’t go becuase I really don’t want to see him. He think he can act like nothing happened, and like he did me this big favor so I can’t be mad at him, you see, I’m the bad person here of course.
So I didn’t go, I stayed home crying instead. And of course no one cared enough to call or text because no one cares about me, not even my family.
Well then, I’m done!
I’m done with people treating me like crap! I’m done with caring about people who don’t even give a shit about me! I’m not gonna be like my mother, I’m not gonna let people shit all over me and eat myself up about it until it killes me.
If my own brother think he can treat me like crap just because I’m boring, or just because I won’t share my feelings with him, (becuase he just keeps proving I should do that right?) then he can go fuck himself for all I care.
If you don’t give a shit about me, I won’t give a shit about you.
This is my new year desicion.