Archive | January, 2013

I Have No Backbone

31 Jan

I hate it when people meddling with certain things I do, you know, something that you want to make and you have your heart set on how and what. I know what I’m doing, I know what I want to do and how to get there. From stupid things like cooking to a collage paper. 


The problem is: I hate arguing with people, especially ones that think they know better or ones that I know they know better. I don’t know how to explain myself, I know what I want to do and what I want to say and how to say it but I don’t know how to explain is before it’s done. And every time someone says to me that my way is no good, and I can’t really explain to them why it actually is, I always back down and do it the way they want mw to. And the final result sucks, and I know it could have been better.  


Just Words

30 Jan

I am an introvert. That means that when I’m feeling down, chances are that I won’t actually go to you for help. In fact, I won’t go to anyone for help. You’ll have to actually check on me. I don’t feel that I should burden others with my problems but if you come to me, I might just trust you enough to let you help.

This is basically me, I don’t like to talk to people about personal stuff I don’t see what good will come out of it. All you get is people telling you that everything will be fine or just telling you that you don’t suck, but I know that it’s not true. It’s just lies that meant to make you feel better, and it’s not, it’s just makes you feel like no one really knows you and the ones that really do makes you feel worthless.
And if the people that are most close to you don’t believe in you, why would you believe in yourself? Why would you believe what other people, people that just want to make you feel better, say?