Feeling lost

2023 was not a good year

I experienced a toxic work place and my manager caused me a panic attack that lead to the ER. I quit my job and I’ve been unemployed for almost a year now. The anxiety and depression are getting worse.

I started seeing a psychiatrist and he proscribed me 3 different meds now and non of them work.

It’s hard for me to talk, I physically can’t talk when I’m around strangers of if it’s about myself, I’m always mad and now with these pills I can’t even cry.

These things always makes people to get sick of me, they always have enough and “if she doesn’t want to talk it’s her problem”.

And now even my psychiatrist got sick of me. I left the last session crying. He was impatient and seemed like he didn’t want to help anymore.

what is wrong with me?