Tag Archives: trust

Why I’m gonna die alone

23 Apr

So I started to chat with this guy on a dating site and things go pretty well so we moved on to Facebook. And after a few months he told me that I’m the only one that he found interesting and kept talking to.

A couple of months later he changed his Facebook status to “in a relationship” and now, like half a year later they moved together.

Now I know that it was probably my fault for taking things slow or “playing hard to get” but this is exactly the reason why I did!

Like either he was a liar or he’s the king of moving too damn fast, and I don’t like both options. This is exactly why I have trust issues, I have no tolerance for lies and I pretty much trust no one.

And I’ll never gonna have a boyfriend like this I know, but I just don’t want to waste my time with bullshit so what’s the difference really.

The Invisible Girl

16 Aug

So last week me and my brother went to our aunt for friday night dinner. 

And you know when people talk and the you say something but no one listen, and then a couple of minutes later someone says exactly what you did but in a way like they just thought about it?

So that was the whole night, me saying things and a couple of minutes later my brother repeat what I said like it was his idea.

My aunt did the same only she recognized me, so not the same. I said that something reminds me of something else, and a couple of minutes later she said “it does look the same”.

Other then that, my brother and two cousins made plans to go to a comedy show this weekend, they did their best not to invite me by not not invite me. And a couple of minutes ago my cousin checked in with both of them on Facebook.

My own family hates me and don’t want to spend time with me, and then wonders why I’m shy and have trust issues. If people who “knows” me don’t care why would total strangers will? 

I guess I’m really a shitty person who just damned to be alone for the rest of her life