So I started to chat with this guy on a dating site and things go pretty well so we moved on to Facebook. And after a few months he told me that I’m the only one that he found interesting and kept talking to.
A couple of months later he changed his Facebook status to “in a relationship” and now, like half a year later they moved together.
Now I know that it was probably my fault for taking things slow or “playing hard to get” but this is exactly the reason why I did!
Like either he was a liar or he’s the king of moving too damn fast, and I don’t like both options. This is exactly why I have trust issues, I have no tolerance for lies and I pretty much trust no one.
And I’ll never gonna have a boyfriend like this I know, but I just don’t want to waste my time with bullshit so what’s the difference really.
I just want a hug.
A real hug, from someone who actually care about me.
Today it happened again, a guy hit on a friend of mine. It happens all the time, every time I’m with a friend someone hits on them. And it’s not even the same friend, it’s a different friend every time.
This time the guy was nice to me, apparently to get to her. I don’t even know why I keep thinking I have any chance with any guy. The only guy who hit on me are old, and I mean 60 years old old.
And to top that on my way home some bitch shouted to me out of a car: “Listen, you’re ugly”.
It’s been 30 years and things won’t get better.
I’m not the kind of girl which men fall in love with in first sight, I’m the “ugly friend” of that girl.
I’m not the kind of girl who can keep a conversation going because I believe that no one really cares.
I’m not the kind of girl who’ll go on a one night stand because I’m not looking for sex I’m looking for love.
I’m not the kind of girl who will open up to people she doesn’t trust, and I don’t trust many people.
I’m not the kind of girl who’ll get a “happily ever after”. I’m the kind of girl who will die alone.